I know it is widely frowned upon for someone to say use the lords name in vein but honestly thats all that s left for me to say after what has transpired over the past few months. Ok so first things first i was in Texas living with my grandparents and well...... that went to shit right there at the end. I only had maybe a month and some change and i was going to head back to Tennessee. Well i was staying with my grandparents and they way things went down they separated and pretty much i didn't want to make things even more awkward so i was like im going home, DUCES. So after a week of straight up hell and so much other family stuff i was returning to my refuge in the mountain valleys of Tennessee.
Well not going to lie i went crazy. In Texas i was pretty much in a prison cell and didn't have that much freedom so once i got home and realized i had all the freedom in the world i was gone. I partied everyday for a couple weeks. Once that ended i had a serious talk and realized i was running from so much stuff and that if i didnt make myself face it then i would just be damaging myself in the long run so right about the time i decide to start working on myself i ended up fuc****g myself over by getting a speeding ticket at 1 in the mourning...90 in a 45. i wasn't racing just passing a car and well i got caught. So now im dealing with that. Besides the fact that im just spiraling out of control i can feel myself getting lost and i don't know what to do. i want to be the old me that everyone knows and loves but honestly i dont know who that is anymore.
Im dealing with stuff and i guess talking about it on here helps me out im glad no one is reading this cause that would be weird for me lol thanks blog for hlpeing me out.... till next time i'll see y'all on the flip side.
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